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Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Mr . Sky

In between two days , we argue again .. hWWww , what is that she is thinking about !! what the hell ~` fed up la , why am i asking for your smile ? i don't everything end it just like that , and you are not happy and i am not happy too .. what happen ohh ? am i wrong , i want to get something from you , is that a such big deal ?! i did told you so many times , i like and wished always to see your smile face .. how many time do you want to disappoint me ? i won't say sorry again , this is not my fault .. i will not put my head down and adjust myself to your position .. please think about me so , please please !!!!! I will not be wronged myself up , if that you will never know what you did and what you had done wrongly ... 

XiaoFei

Monday, April 5, 2010

No name

I'm not strong , i will never strong since i am here ...

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

After Results' day

Barry Lim : dont spend too much time on the line le..
PeakKee: LOL , not always lers...
PeakKee: really , very few time online
Barry Lim : Got lots to do
Barry Lim : but dont be disappointed ..
PeakKee: hmmmm? thinking what can i do also...
Barry Lim : you have done your best and found that that is not enoughto get you to your expectations so you need to gear up . there is nothing u need to do now.  stay focus.. stay cool .. there is lots to do in the times to come..you will do well and you can always come to your wise uncle for advice .if you need any
PeakKee: anyway i had made everyone disappointed , and i will try to do best another time !! i had listen too much of cheers from everybody , it makes me mad and not feeling like cheering so..
Barry Lim: you know which wise uncle right >
PeakKee: YOU ! Lol , i will always listen to you !
Barry Lim : Not because I can gamble well.. Look at your strengths ..
PeakKee: you not only can gamble well , in everything every part you can do well and over everybody expectation
Barry Lim : find out where there are .. is it thinking, analysing, writing , maths , then find out where your weakness is .. You have to be very sincere and believe in yourself that you are serious enough to find out your Strengths and Weakness..then be honest how you want to slowly but seriously improve them ...one by one .planning is very important . put infront of yoru table in your room a 50cm by 50 cm... and stick post it notes to remind you of your objectives
short term and mid term objectives... like you want to be able to write better do maths better .
 take self test..frequently.
PeakKee: how to take self test?
Barry Lim : then put chart infront to see your own progress. from teh self test and the exas from school... do mock up test paper that you can buy from Popular for specific subjects.
Barry Lim: what are you taking after form 5 ? Form 6? or others
PeakKee: form 6
Barry Lim : of straight to twinning ...where...
PeakKee: give myself two more years to be more mature
PeakKee: in ipoh , for science stream
PeakKee: maybe sam tet
Barry Lim : is the science stream too taxing for you ? isit your strengths?
Barry Lim: or you like to do arts stream ?
PeakKee: accounting you mean? not thinking of that .. but i know , i didnt did my best for form 5
Barry Lim : you can chose and better to chose it now
Barry Lim : you do  not need to do any form five subjects to do arts form six
PeakKee: i dont know is it to taxing for me but if i really got a chance to get into science for now , i will try my best to do it..
Barry Lim: ok ok it is okay to try but I can tell you that it is quite a task .
PeakKee: i know that .. but i didnt think to take art stream too .. and some more for form 6 in ipoh and for my school ..
Barry Lim: Melanie got her A levels. results last week from SIngapore
PeakKee: for i am choosing for arts then it will be RPS .. A bad form 6 school..
PeakKee: i heard from ah ma dy .. mel got good results
Barry Lim : important that you do what you want to and not the school
Barry Lim: okay la .. she got 4 As
PeakKee: that's a GOod results ! anyway all my cousin always get good results and will never disappoint everyone ! LOL A very huge pressure !
Barry Lim : i am saying she change the subjects later because she felt science too difficult and not what she likes
Barry Lim : and she did economics. maths , physics and KI
PeakKee: i understand what are you actually trying to say ..

                                                                                     
i got this after few days of my results day , i am not in a mood for how long long time ! i can't even realise that i can get such WORST results , Damn ME ! i disappointed myself , everyone and anyone .. Am i ? As what she said , A's really was an easy job . but what happen to me ? i lost my dream , my future ! where is it now ? i Can't saw or see it ...

XiaoFei

Saturday, March 6, 2010

The first post after Chinese New Year

Finished my 2010's Chinese New Year , yet was a BORED cny that i had ... Shouldn't be a Chinese New Year was a gathering for family in a Complete Form? This ain't a best year for me, because i didn't see some of my dearest family member in LIM family ! Shaunnie Gor gor , he brought lots of fun in our gather .He went to Uk for the further studies since last year , Thumbs Up for him ! He can did well as what everyone thought and think .. Charles Gor gor , He's going to graduate this year , Cheers* for him .. One More Accountant - Calculative Human appears in our family , sweat lots =.=lll Who will attend his convo ? hMmm, with a high cost for flight ticket , i won't be the one ! Uncle Benny , i should say ADD OIL for him kays? Some problems appears in his life , a tough year for him ! Cheer Uncle Benny you will be the best and our family are always waiting for you ..Anything comes easy if you did try hard before .. Gar Yao , In our family , NO one was a LOSER ! CHeers for everyONE !

 For this year , 2010 , I should and i must give myself a chance , get me a healthy and Nice body shape ! When i was in China , my daddy lent me a hand with finding a COACH for me . Thanks daddy =) he does used up plenty of money in my one month course ,i think thousand plus ! Swear for myself , i will never waste whatever i did for one month plus . I passed the hardest part and now i need to continue what i did before to slim down my body shape ! Going to ISC - Ipoh Swimming Club for gym everyday , one and a half hour plus .. I hate sweat , but only sweating can help me ! So how ? What to do ? Facts showed , i must accept sweats ~`


Congratulation to Myself ! I passed my driving test last day ! Thanks my dear , THIM for sure ! She urged me lots before my test , she and her MR reach my place about 10++ ! She left after 15 mins she reached , Dia Pergi Tidur Di Rumah MR nya ! We have lunch together at some place near school , food tase good ! but i got no appetite to finish up my meal )= i WASTE food !!

Family always be together ! Yea , this is what i want in my family now and further ON ! Sometimes is it , i am thinking too much or it does really happen , i don't know .. No hoping to think more about it , if it really go smoothly , then let it be ...


My MR and you saw it ?!




2010 , Thanks Xd
Hope that everybody having a healthy body and Be in a good mode always ! Cheers* (=

Sunday, February 14, 2010

I'm back

Hi everybody , XiaoFei back from china since 12 Feb 2010 !
hEes (= happy right ? when you see my post i am going to start my 2010 life in Malaysia .
I had a nice ,enjoyable life in China for almost one and a half month !
I like it and not willing to come back !
At there i got not problems ,no trouble and not headache too
But after i am back i need to face the facts and everythings !
Isn't it is too cruel for me ?!

the first chinese new year present i got is
My facebook profile get hacked !
hell )=
who is the idiot who hacked in !
iShhh. too free got nothing to do ?
hErg angrying ...

anyway it doesn't a big matter !
just let it go ...

today 14 february 2010
Valentine's day ! Big day and my day !
haha ,yup for sure i got surprise
it was a top secret !haha XD
do you feel like punching me ?
Come On ! haha !

At last , happy Chinese New Year everyone!
have a Nice and Lovely new year !
take Care (=

XiaoFei

Thursday, January 7, 2010

For Sky

天空,

谢谢你在我的生命里面给了我很多很多的记忆,在我难看的生命里留下足迹!我不命苦,我有很幸福的家庭,家境不错的家人,给着我充实的生活!我应该满足的,在每个人眼中,我多么的坚强,多么的本事,多么的努力,多么的独立!我才十七岁,从来所有人在给我对待,评论之前,通常都拥着平时的眼光,最浅短的知识!好幸福哦,待在一个幸福快乐的家庭,你应该知足了不是吗?可是,从来从来没有人看得到我到底在想什么!面对着人群的压力,大家庭里家长们给予的压力,我可以怎么办?

悲观,没有朋友,养成了我即使交朋友也必须伪装起自己!套上坚强的外壳,独立的后盾,戴着快乐的微笑,告诉着大家不同的谎话!我有多快乐,我有多幸福,有多么多的朋友围绕着我!羡慕的想法,从小在我心里面就扎根了!我只有羡慕,妒嫉!得到?我不配!不是片面之词,但却是事实!看到各种的情况,各种的人类,他们的想法,他们的态度!好像接近他们,但,我却不能…

12岁那年,从小时候就看过,只有强势的人,有权力的人自然就会有很多朋友。我告诉我自己我要成为强者,甚至是跨越老师的学生!万人之上,所有人都必须屈服于我!是的,我得到我想要的,但却不是得到一直以来所羡慕的!

家里,我很乖,我默不作声,什么也不说,什么都接受!打骂,欺负,甚至大声吼我,都可以!我不会反抗,我不违逆~`你发现吗?只有这样子,在家里才会得到尊重,他们才会看到我的存在!我的存在因为逆来顺受,接受一切不应该,但却被他们认为是理所当然的!从小到大,从来没有人发现过我的存在!当我存在时,那一定是我被讥笑,被排挤的时候…曾经新年时,所有人都聚在房间里面说话时,我却是唯一一个被关在房间外面的人!不管我多用力的敲门,不管我多努力的要求,我依然是被排挤的那个!

在学校,没有尊重可言吧!从小被训练出来的敏感度,我学会了解读,站在别人立场上思考!我不想尊重任何人,但是我却想得到所有人的尊重!当我想要时,当我得到时,上天终会不让我得到,几乎成功的努力,也恢复最原先的白纸!

努力,我好努力!我不想,更不会放弃任何一个属于我的机会!可是,我却从来得不到机会可以成功的一半!很衰吧~`我不笑,跟所有人我都不喜欢笑,从小就不会笑!看到大家拍照说笑时,我会是唯一一个不笑的那个!

但是,天空,我发觉,对着你,即使是最下沉的45度嘴角往下弯,他也会慢慢的变成45度的幸福微笑!8个月了,跟你在一起,没有了悲观的想法,我的存在感得到了实质的感觉!谢谢你天空,在所有我最无理取闹的时候,体谅我,宽恕我,包容我!我们之前的回忆,我们之间的共识与共鸣!谢谢你配合我,一直以来的配合,让我紧紧地粘着你,不舍得把你放开!

爱上你,是我17年做的所有决定里面,最不会后悔的一项!选择相信你,我不后悔,因为相信是,远走高飞幸福的存在!看过你哭的样子,听过你哭的声音,答应过你的,我一定能够做到!我相信,我们会跟所有人不一样,也任何人都不同!世界上最唯美,最独一无二的爱情,在我们的心理占据着!

谢谢你,天空!谢谢你得从不抱怨,从不埋怨!


天空,我爱你!

讲太多了,好像没什么效率了吧~`

可是,我一天比一天更爱更爱你了

跟你度过一次次的难过,一次次的不开心

到最后的幸福笑着^^

看着你的笑容,是我每天的支撑

我的满足感!

爱上你,教会了我

人是不会满足的~`

因为爱你,变得更爱更爱了!

我不知道又没有机会看到

可是

天空,你是我一辈子的天空老公

我的王子殿下,没有人可以取代了!

小小天空和小小远走的天空爸爸!


can i say how much do i love you ?

Uncountable amout , i'm falling on you deeply

It's obviously out of my expectation !

Sky , Loving yOu hardly and so deeply..


小琪

Monday, January 4, 2010

04 December 2010

Reached at ShangHai Pudong International Airport this early morning ! Since i entered the plane cabin i started to sneeze NON-STOP , runny nose all came to me in a shot ! Hell )= By the way , the passenger sat beside me help me alots , he didn't ran away from me ,but he helps me ! He let the air-cond to the other way but not to me ! Thanks Him XD May God bless Him

What a shock news i got from Khai Yuet just now ! Thim break up with Vincent after i departed , eWww ! Worried , why this happened after i leave malaysia ? Well , she is really moody for this few days ! Busy with working , actually all in my expectation lErs ! What i didn't told thim about the reality is when he said that he will not able to celebrate anniversary with you , His mean ! I don't love you anymore , no excuses for me to give up my job and be with you during anniversary ! the Reality is cruel , i dare not to tell ! Sorry !

But LOH TZE THIM , you must have your meal everyday and in a normal mode ! when i am back , i will request for the normal dear but not the different dear ! okays ? promise me , anything find me through skype xiaofei920716 !

Cheers everyday =D smile

Friday, January 1, 2010

罪人与谅解

好像是这样子的,对我失去所有的信任了!
信任,真得好重要!
相信我,是所有人跟我维系关系的唯一方法!
往往每一次,当我希望你们真得可以很相信我的时候,
我总会把你们的希望一一摧毁掉!
无法被信任,一直都带这个枷锁吧!
不管对着谁,都没有人能够真得相信我说的。
好像一个罪人,我是一个罪人
让大家都没有办法原谅我了!
我的自尊心,几乎可以说是没有吧!
已经达到可以被大家任意践踏的地步了…
我好想你们都原谅我
为什么每当我道歉的时候,我得到的答案都是相反的!
欺骗我的人,我可以原谅
背叛我的人,我可以原谅
冷落我的人,我可以原谅
讨厌我的人,我可以原谅
可是,为什么,被我无心欺骗的人都无法原谅我
为什么?被我不想被判的人永远无法原谅我?
为什么,被我冷落的人不能原谅我?
甚至为了某些原因而被我讨厌的人,当我祈求原谅的时候
都依然无法被原谅?
有时候,我真得就把你们方的高高在上了!
你们却都看不见我…
当我真地说,对不起时,可以告诉我
我原谅你!
这么简单的四个字,就这么难说吗?
为什么,祈求原谅却得不到谅解…
这种感觉,跟着我好久了!
从来没有人会真正的原谅我
谅解,真得好难好难!
对不起,似乎都不值钱了

XiaoFei

2009 、 谢谢那些擦身而过的

我们 ,只用了一个转身,便找到了幸福 ;
我们 ,只回了一个微笑,就得到了珍惜 。

 2009 、遠比我预期的幸福了很多
我的快乐 ,向来建立在别人的痛苦之上 、
奠定幸福的从来就不是爱情,是感激 。

谢谢 ,你们 。
放弃了我 ;
冷落了我 ;
怨恨了我 ;
也愛過我 。

請一起祈祷 ,2010年一切比现在美好 。

Thursday, December 31, 2009

20091231




随着2009年的离开,2010年的接近!
新的一年,新的开始~`
跟着自己的习惯,一年里的美好的,不美好的,统统都已成了过去式…
开启一个全新的空间,灌输一切全新的记忆!



输入格式,填写资料,用了一天的时间,花费了一堆脑力,精力和脑力
好累,真得好累!可是,完成后,满满的成就感冲进我的心里面
从所未有的体验,第一次亲自动手处理属于自己的空间!
第一次的新体验,第一次我的努力~`



2009好多好美的记忆,不舍得删除,也不可能删除吧!



六个朋友,一个约定



承诺2019年10月6日重新见面!我永远都不会忘记我们真的有过着一个约定!即使他再困难,即使他再远,即使在所有人眼中,它多么的不可能实现!我都依然期望着,我们六个都不会忘记!10年以后,变化应该会蛮大的!是带着孩子了呢?还是做了富豪?少奶奶?还是完成了明星梦?专业化妆师?金融奇才?商业达人?手术台上的医生?设计着一件件充满梦与希望的婚纱呢?谁也不知道?明天会怎样,谁懂呢?
祝福他们,衷心为他们祈祷:幸福快乐,身体健康!



 婉庆



她是第一个要离开我们的了!在我的预料之中!他也是我们之间成绩是最棒的一个吧!数学天才,这个他真的担当得起!就是很厉害啊,计算机可以拿在手上,不头晕的那种~`坐在我的旁边,说真的,他真得好吵很吵!不超死人死不罢休的说~`2009的他,其实说真一层,是真的没有那么的靠近彼此了!看着她陪着他的朋友,有着一种酸酸的感觉!吃醋他被抢走了啦!XP



 诗恬


粉红色!看着她跟vincent的感情发展,看见他们的甜酸苦辣!看到她的坚持,看到她的任性,看到她的固执,看到她对感情的放不下!很幸福的每一天!看着她的眼泪,听到她的幸福!在我家里的模仿拍照,一直说过的愿望!我是曾经听过,也想过替她实现了!给他们彼此留下很多的回忆!好希望他们可以很久很久,但是单方的无法配合,在进行倒计时了~`她是我最棒的朋友,
最珍惜的朋友,我一辈子永远无法被我忘记的朋友!


 嘉宴



对他来说,彼此都有着一个心结吧!无法真正的说话,无法真正的聊天,可是心里面都认定了对方这个朋友!永远的朋友,即使我们有再多的不合!



 欣煜


好想她~`每次把我带进带出的朋友!好可爱的一个朋友,整天傻傻的笑着!



 宝仪


幻想着跟龙龙在一起!可以吗?呵呵~`

 5S11


我的班级,永存的记忆!有着种种不同的人,各式各样的性格,做着各种各样不可思议的事情!被老师们冠上了,全校最吵,最调皮,最无可救药的班级!是的,我们应该承认!班里的人,都受不了本身班级的无法控制而歇斯底里!担任重要职务的,好像被规定了你们最好就睁一只眼闭一只眼吧!大家似乎有着一种相同的想法,你也不合作,最好我也不合作吧!反正就算我不合作,也没关系啦,也没有人会发现!曾经想过要放弃了,看着有一部分的人仍然很努力的奋斗着,就这样放弃了么?我们彼此好像不怎么有着良好的沟通!但是这两年以来,我们默默做了好多事情,好像只是一部分的人合作着,但是往深得想一下,大家一起配合着才会有今天的成功吧!好高兴,我们一起两年了!有过许多的悲伤,有过许多的不愉快,却能够呈现出别人所没有的喜悦和欢笑!食堂日,大家努力的,虽然输了,但我却觉得我们赢了!赢了第一次的合作,赢了第一次的欢笑,赢了大家看不到的一切!还有,我还蛮佩服你们那天给予的支持与鼓励!我们的班级聚会,可能是我包办的关系,看到了一层大家看不到的!你们的想法,你们的努力!谢谢你们!高二理十一,我永远的骄傲!我永远的回忆!我永远的朋友!加油,各奔前程吧!

 天空

一样的人,给了我幸福,给我快乐,给我欢笑~`没有悲伤,虽然有着眼泪也只是短暂的!天空,他真的是一个很棒很棒的宝贝!有着一种我说不出口的理由,我不能,也无法让你们知道他到底是谁!可是,他真得给我很多很多~`看起来像是我单方面我在付出,他也付出了不少吧!只是,想不通的时候,我帮他解决!他不开心的时候,偶尔跟他撒撒娇,他马上就会心软了!她的心很脆弱,看不到的脆弱~`曾经被伤害过,不敢再相信任何人,我也用了半年的时间让他重新地相信!跟我在一起,我只要她快乐,只要她开心,没有任何压力的跟我在一起!信任,我们彼此的桥梁!可是这两天我把它弄了一个缺口!做了一件连我自己也无法原谅的事情,好对不起,好无法被原谅的感觉!天空,对不起!虽然这三个真得很讨厌!可是他们让我记住了,我犯过的错,不能重犯的错,而且付出了最大最大的代价!可是我真得很爱你~`即使不知道还有多久,即使不知道还能多久,我真得真得很珍惜我们彼此的感情!有很多时候都是我对着他流着眼泪,哭哭啼啼的样子,他给我的实在是太多太多了!看着他为我付出的一切,他说的一切,他想的一切,只属于我一个人的记忆…我好想她``想要保护她,不再让他受到任何的伤害~`我只能做的,似乎只有这一些了 (=



 2010年的到来!崭新的开始~`
我们一起加油努力吧~`



 XiaoFei